My ex-boyfriend and I were together since we were in high school and entered different colleges. I broke up with him in the second year of college, at the end of 2010. It was not that I fell in love with someone else. It's just that something didn't work out somehow. He couldn't understand why I just broke up him with no proper reasons. Even I myself couldn't explain that. I avoided seeing him for about eight months, and I know what I did really hurt him badly.
I've always wanted to connect with him, but I didn't have the courage to call him. And then, I went to the United States in 2011 for a summer vacation. When I finally decided that I was going to call him and tell him I wanted to be with him forever, I found out that he changed his Facebook status on the same day. He's dating another girl. I was so shocked, I had no idea what to do. I was on the other side of the Pacific Ocean. We were thousands of miles apart.
Then, we talked on MSN and he admitted he is with another girl now. They're classmates. I told him that I love him, I always have. However, he just said he's with someone else. He is in love with her. That's the last time we talked and we didnt see each other for a long, long time. I love him. But this love for him is killing me. I'm a Christian. I keep telling myself to trust in the Lord with all your heart, He will make straight your paths. But I am still afraid. I love him so much, but I couldn't see him; I couldn't know how he is doing; we couldn't be friends.
I am 21 now. People say I am still young, "you'll never know who you're gonna meet in the future." But I know, I just know that I will love him forever and ever. No one else can make me love him like this.
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